Not in the mood.

It's been a while since I wrote my last blogspot, so I though I should give it a try and make one up again. In between so many things have happened, like the Crossing Border festival in The Hague & where I saw Ludo again!

You would've probably expected me to update my Blogspot as soon as I arrived at home after my day at the beach and city of The Hague. Well nope, because I was only home around 2:30 AM with dad and I spend the next day eating and watching films because I wasn't in the mood. I'm still not really in the mood, this week has just been so shitty, I just hate it.They say, what's down must go up and it does, but they don't mention the fact that 'once it's up, it always goes down' again. Oh bugger, I wish they would've told me earlier than I could've mentally prepared myself for this week, you know?

But either way, I was at The Hague and at the beach and it was lovely. Dad and I spend about 2 hours on the beach looking for shells and taking pictures. Because it was foggy and stuff, it looked really cool and the sun was coming half-way through and the weather wasn't cold; it was nice to walk around and just smell the sea and watch over nothing but water. The knowledge you have, it's weird. When you look at the sea, you just instantly think 'Oh hey water' but underneath there is a whole world we don't know. There's a whole fucking world under it; animals, long lost treasures whatsoever. It freaks me out.

This was taken approximately 10 years ago, so I was about 6/7 years old and I've been back there this weekend for the first time in 10 years and somehow I really felt emotional. It was insane. Only my brother wasn't there with me, so we couldn't retake the picture which makes me sad.

After the beach we went to the city center of The Hague to eat. The coolest thing was actually, the fact I've been at the 'Binnenhof' because I've never been there and it's practically one of the most important places if you look at it, it's were the whole government is all the time to consider/reconsider and make this whole country work. I felt blown away, it was stunning. We ate at this Italian Place, which looked really small but actually wasn't. We ate pizza and some pasta and left because it was getting too busy and I was constantly looking around and it felt so 'pushed onto each others lap' it was that busy. I left for Crossing Border and met up with Ludo and went inside.
Now, one thing you should know: Crossing Border is a festival for people who are intellectual really smart and loves to hear people read stories and poets.. Damn. The average age was about 35 I think. Ludo and I were the only younger girls, unless you also count the damn whole fanclub Ed Sheeran had. We left to the venue (yes, there were different kind of venues with people and bands) where Ed Sheeran was going to play and we waited, so we saw Loch Lomond and they were actually really good. The guy looked like a total hipster and there was another dude just sitting there doing nothing and randomly touching some instruments, and there was a girl playing the piano. We left and arrived on time for Ed Sheeran, we were about 3rd row I think? He was really awkward though and made some jokes. He started off with 'Give Me Love' which made my heart explode from the inside because it was amazing and also my favorite song from his album '+'. He followed up with Lego House.. I did hope for Rupert Grint to walk onto the stage and sing it, but no Rupert.

Then, the time of my life started. Patrick Wolf was doing a Meet & Greet. I'll just save you the details because it was awkward  and I made him sign a Tea Towel for my mum and yes it reminds me of my mum and Patrick laughed at me while he was probably secretly judging me but hey, at least I wasn't wearing a wolf on my head, was I? No I was wearing cat ears!

I also met Ed Sheeran as well. He was cute and awkward and really cute but scary as well LOOK AT HIS HEAD SIZE DEAR LORD. He looks like this cute tiny ginger you want to have in your pocket all day long and just take care of aww.

After meeting Ed (because we had too much time but not TOO much time because we had to head back for Patrick Wolf) we raced back and managed to get front row seats. I was just in the middle of the theater and when Patrick went through his knees I could grab his crotch if I wanted. So close guys!

Most perfect human being I know. Next to Ludo.

I'll just die in peace now and cry in my pillow because Patrick Wolf blew me away. Did I mention he walked through the theater when he sang 'The Falcons' and high-fived Manon, Ludo's friend? He's cool like that yes. So, in the end, the past weekend was heaven and I hope to have a blast this weekend as well because I'm going to play Amnesia at Max's. I'm scared.

Bake A Cake

This morning, I got woken up by my friend who jumped on top of me while she was having a coffee. It might sound tacky and cheesy, but it was really cute. Since she spend the night with me, we were really bad and stayed up until 1 AM. We came home after 5 hours spending time in the city walking around dressed up as a 'Zwarte Piet' since Sinterklaas arrived again. My (volunteers)work needed two person to hand out flyers and such so I said we'd do it and we did. It was actually a lot of fun, but some kids are really a pain in the ass and they're rude. It's weird when you're dressed up, because you really can't risk saying anything bad since Sinterklaas doesn't exist. Though, dressing up was fun and somehow you become famous in a blink. People took pictures with us and asked for candy and asked how Sinterklaas was doing, it was cute.

The make-up was everywhere. And with everywhere, I do mean everywhere; my earlobes and inside my ear is still black and inside my nose a bit as well. In my hair there's still make-up. After the long day, we went home ate something and spend 1,5 hours in my bubblebath. I should take more time for bubblebaths with friends, it's really cool to do, plus very fun as well! Then we watched Tangled downstairs and moved our asses to my parent's bedroom where we could sleep and watched Thor for an hour. One word: Loki.

She left this morning really early, which left me wandering around the house, cleaning stuff, feed Napoleon and the fishes. Then, I decided to back a cake and some muffins. I found a few packages to make cakes and cupcakes of, so it was really easy. I also made a playlist to listen to while baking and such, but in the end the soundtrack of Amélie it was. It was marvelous.

I found these packages in our closet, but I only used the front two. The Stracciatella Cake mix and the muffin mix. I love these mixes, because I am lazy and I only have to add some eggs and water and you have your mix fully done. 20 minutes to an hour in the oven and you're done. Of course I always use things to make it look more decent: I add sprinkles, chocolate sauce or topping

This is supposed to be our chocolate cake mix. It looks fucked up, it also took 1 hour to bake.

First I wanted to have it blue but I figured out I had to use the whole bottle to get it smurf-ish blue, and I didn't want that. Instead it got a bit tooth-paste colored and after that I found a red bottle, which I put in it and created this masterpiece. It wasn't fully stirred, so it became purple/pink with the toothpaste colored one.

Oops, still some blue!

And as the final result, which is absolutely delicious... THE CAKE.

Even though I spend my day baking cakes and sorting out our 500 DVDs plus making lists on the computed for printing out and adding to the baskets, I had a fun time. You know what's still bothering me though? Why is it that I really don't miss having friends or doing something fun, like going outside and party. I don't miss it. Is it me or is it in general, that I come from this wicked generation we're a shitload of badasses who spend their time on tumblr and on the internet instead of socializing, making new friends and eventually get a boyfriend? Mmm. Someone should explain me! X

Oh no!

5 November 2011: The day a crack in the universe appeared. Erm, I mean the day when I met the coolest person to be alive, the lovely Ludo. I love her so much I even travel 2 hours after 6 hours of sleep, broken bones and a neckache *insert sarcasm sign*! Around 11:45 I arrived and found her sitting at the starbucks where I gave her my presents, an almighty squeaking carrot and the wolf necklace! We went on our way to the Primark, what is like heaven. Okay, except for all the people because it's busy everywhere! But really, I adore all the things I bought. Penguin pyjamas, penguin mug, even penguin briefs if I am not mistaken.. Take a look!

PENGUINS! The penguin pajama was the very first one I put in my shopping basket, and along I found this really cute mug and those socks. I don't even have any reasons why I bought it, just look at it.

Upper left: Green tights (primark)  with a belt I bought at the airport at Pieces. It's a bit too small... Upper right: The rubber ducky and Ludo's drawing she made for me. I love beavers. Down left: Nailpolish; blue, black, red/orange and a lipgloss, H&M. Down right: Amazing woolen vest I bought at the primark. I'm in love!

Have I told you Ludo is the most amazing person ever? Like ever ever forever ever. And her mum is so lovely, I already told Ludo that they should adopt me and become my second family because I actually see myself spending shitloads of time with her! Then we went to eat something at La Place after discussing that I had to decide where to eat (after Ludo's mum told me they were my slaves.. Odd, O tell ypu!) and we just had a lovely lunch. Thanks to her mum by the way, she paid for it! Occasionally making pictures of what you're going to eat is contagious.

Omelet with champions and ruccola. It was delicious!

They brought me back to Schiphol where I thought to catch my train. But travelling by train is a risk and so I had a delay of one hour, which gave me time to get food, new nailpolish, lipgloss and a tiny belt just because it was cheap. Also, the H&M played Marina and The Diamonds, which made me so happy! I treated myself on a cup of vanilla rooibos tea. Yummm. And here I am, on my way back home, writing this with a backache thanks to this shitty wall chair because I don't want to sit in the coupé next to some person I don't know. On top of that, I'll be seeing her again in two weeks and party at the Crossing Border festival with Patrick Wolf! I also have a challenge: Win the M&G with Patrick Wolf and make him wear my wolf hat. And pictures, because everyone is like "pics or didnt happen 0mfg"

Day well spend, and with well I mean, best day of my entire last month! But hey, I love you Ludo and I am glad I can call you my best friend because I wouldn't want to have it another way :-)

Happy Halloween!

Also known as the day you go from your normal self to another exhausting day of being a madman.

This year I choose to be the Doctor but with some very special finishing touch: a girly zombie, based on Florence Welch. To get the Doctor Outfit, all I needed were those wine-colored suspenders and a tweed jacket. Found the tweed jacket at a local second-hand store for a penny and lend the suspenders from a guyfriend. Bow tie is mine, blouse is mine and the tweed jacket is now mine as well! (plus, tweed is fashionable at the moment so I'm glad I found one. It's a bit big, but that's not a problem at all because now I can wear jumpers beneath it)

You know what I love about Halloween? You get to dress up and act like a fool and no one would actually judge you because you look weird but everyone else does as well. But at the same time, where I live, no one celebrates Halloween. Such a shame, because Halloween is amazing and you get to trick or treat and eat candy all day long and get scared because you're watching the remakes of Halloween again, as some sort of marathon you're doing with friends. I'd love to celebrate Halloween in America one time, when I get there at some point. Anyway, I had an Halloween party yesterday and it was marvelous. I know, Halloween is on monday but I'll be at school until 4 and after that I have to study for important exams, so I can't terrorize the city with my looks.

Sassy Freddie Krueger - Death - Doctor Skeleton

All with all, I had a blast. Some didn't: just by the way how they were playing and busy with their phones, sitting and looking around the room and not moving. Next to that, they had plates with cake, cupcakes and chicken. Writing this, I've been blasting the full soundtrack of The Lion King. Maybe I'll dress up as simba next year, or Rafiki... Long live my youth.

 

Jealous, don't you know!

I don't know how it's even possible, but it's almost 12 AM and I am sitting here, writing my next blog about how my day went. Trust me, I am tired and I want to sleep but I need to share it. I've been awake since 8 AM already, I deserve an award for that to be honest. I had to work yesterday, and was home around 1, fell asleep around 1:30 AM. 6,5 hours of sleep and spend then next 12 hours with two kids my mum is babysitting, aged 8 & 10. And trust me, they're not very pleasant when you go to an amusements park with them! The youngest of the two is an 8 year old girl and you do not want to piss her off. The common problem we always have with her is about candy. She can't have anything to eat what is concentrated. Most of the candy actually is (OH WHAT A SURPRISE) I was kind of getting irritated by her because she wanted everything, like money didn't mean a thing to her. Plus, if we weren't listening to her, she found it necessary to punch you all the time. And the 10 year old boy is just bloody clever. But, somewhat he's irritating as well because he thinks he's funny, when he's actually always throwing insults at you without noticing. I love kids.

It was amazing though, I haven't been there since I was 6, so it has been 11 years before I was there again. So many things have changed and it's wonderful. We went to a 4D-movie (mostly about how people are destroying and yet cleaning the environment. It was meant to be a fun-4D-movie-for-kids-aged-from-2-till-12. Hey, good try though!) Went into this other thing, called Ocean of Darkness. It used to be so much more 'muchier' but that's just... Gone? It was a room where you go into a cart and you are stuck into an big underwater mask and all you can see is paint on the wall and a naked mermaid. The cart was cool though, it looked like a gas mask like the ones they used in Doctor Who. We also went to swimming for half an hour, found out you can only swim there if you're a guest staying in their bungalows. I say 'High Five!' to my mom because she sneaked us in!

Now the fun part is beginning, even though it was around 5 PM. We went towards the main street where they have these little boutiques and I bought the coolest, I swear, the coolest things ever. And I probably spend too much on the most ridiculous hat ever: I DON'T CARE I LOVE IT OMG.

My Grace Kelly cut out paper doll, which you can dress up with other clothes, printed out on paper. You just have to pin it up and you can create different kinds of outfits. I just fell in love with it. I also bought a Marilyn Monroe cookie jar. Haaaaa.

Two wolf necklaces I bought at the Cowboy store they had. I'm not even going to explain why, because everyone should just know why I bought this. Yes, two of them. One is for Ludo :3

This, next to me, is the best purchase I have done in months. This ladies and gentlemen, is my new hat Hutchie. I called it Hutchie because it's a husky. Well, supposed to be one... I was just joking around calling it Hutchie, but the two kids did take me serious, and when they said goodbye they kissed my hat and said ''Goodnight Hutchie, sleep tight!'' My heart broke in millions of tiny pieces. Also, walking around like this is the best thing I have done in weeks. The worker at the Mac Donalds commented me on how cool it was and kids kept staring at me. I felt awesome. Came home around 9, live chatted with Ludo, which was quite embarrassing, thanks to my lovely family. Hint: My brother could be a werewolf from Twilight. Let's be honest: live chatting/webcamming with me is even better than a real life soap. Just one of the risks you have to take when you decide to be friends with me. Instead of one, you most of the time also get my parents, my little brother and my little sister...

OTHER EXCITING NEWS, THESE TWO BABIES:

Monika's letter. Ah yessss, when I came back from this exciting day, this beautiful envelope was lying on my desk. Can I just quote something? ''''I guess I have to wait until they fire **** and hire you instead. You'd be a great manager for them. You'd let them make out on stage during their next grand tour.'' This made me smile, really. Not because it's hilarious but because I couldn't have gotten a better compliment than that. I want to be a freaking badass band manager when I grow up, and just do the best I can. Obviously. And yes, if they want to snog so badly, they can. I wouldn't mind.

My Crossing Border festival ticket in The Hague. Excuse me while I die, but I'm going to see Pattie Wolf (haaaaaa, wolf haaaaaaaa) and hopefully meet him. I just have to mention it because I am excited and I have something to look forward to after my first history exam. Very important exam is very important, you see? Amsterdam in 2 weeks, festival in 4 weeks... I don't mannn, my life is exciting. (except for the homework that I've might been procrastinating, mmm...)

But hey, always keep believing in yourself, always look at the bright side of  life and never lose faith. If you're just a puddle of nothing and if you don't believe in yourself, no one will. Not that this has anything to do with the long rant I just did... Appreciate yourself. Do it for me. Let me see those jazzzhands! And dear traveler, I think I love you.

Counting Sunday

My dad had this marvelous idea to go and walk in the woods, 20 minutes drive from here and so we went. I was actually exciting and brought the EOS 300 on film with me, my mum told me I could. Snapped some beautiful/magnificent pictures. Passed some trees, famous because they used to burn Witches at those trees. Scared some kids with it. Shame the developing of the film will take longer than expected, so I'll probably make an huge post since I have to develop almost 6 films! BUT, my sunday has been made by the lovely Ludo. See here why...

Better than secretly-eating-the-dough-when-you're-still-making-cupcakes

So, I just got home and as you guys know I've been to Aachen with my dad to see Hurts at the Tivoli Eissporthalle for the 1LIVE Eine nacht in Aachen! And trust me, not a single bit went according to plan and I still had the time of my life. My dad and I had the plan to leave around 3 PM because the trip to Aachen would take 2,5/3 hours. But we didn't leave around 3PM, we left 45 minutes later. Next to that, just before Aachen we got stuck into the traffic jam and I kind of freaked out because Dianna (she's so lovely! :3) was waiting for me so I could go inside with her and I'd be at the front of the stage. Once again, I was too late. So we hurried to the hotel, check in, dropped off our stuff, refreshed + bathroom break (I needed to go since we just left home ha-ha) and went to the venue with the car.

Really, I was shocked. There was a queue from here to Tokio! Once we were inside, it really was an ice hall, and me being not too smart, forgot her cardigan and shawl in the car.. I walked to the front and called Dianna were she was standing, and I saw her hand but I realised there were so many people already so I decided to stay at the left. But my dad wanted something to eat, so we did. I bumped into Jana when we were heading back and I wished her happy birthday! Sadly she was already gone so I couldn't say goodbye to her. Unfortunately, when we got back we couldn't go back into the front area. Frustrated and all, Tim Bendzko started playing what made me cringe because he is just that typical German pop star who sings cheesy songs. Great. I would've enjoyed it more if I actually knew what he was singing about in detail. Next to that, people (couples mostly,found it appropriate to snog every time Tim sang a romantic/sad song) were moving in front of my so I couldn't see a thing anymore, which made me cringe even more than before. That's what I hate, because I start looking around and I stop focusing on what's happening at the stage. I decided with dad we should get something to drink, and I absolutely dropped every care I had about seeing Hurts at the most front-ish I could get. To be honest, while Tim was playing, there was a moment when I wanted to go home and fuck everything, I wanted to die.

When we got back I stood at the right side, next to a barrier and the show started. This is going to sound so cheesy, but when I saw them, I knew why I was there again. I started smiling like a moron and no, I was not on drugs. After Silver Lining and Wonderful Life I decided to sit onto the barrier, which was next to me, so I could see very clear! But really, I couldn't help but chuckle at the fact they were beaming the shaving-leg lady at the background while playing Blood, Tear and Gold. I also found the reason back why Evelyn was my favorite song again; Theo's madness, the tension there is, and the sphere there is when they're playing it. It's like he's in his own fantasy world where this Queen Evelyn lives, who decided to abandon all of her children to find another home. Unspoken was so amazing, Adam's piano work is très done, c'est magnifique! It was wonderful. And they played Affair, thank god! Words cannot describe, so I filmed to whole thing and you can check it out when I've uploaded all of my videos on my youtube page (and my dads) Their 'last' song was Stay, which was amazing. I wouldn't have chosen it myself to end a show with, but of course, there was an encore. No Verona and The Water though, but we did get Better Than Love twice, second time as the encore... and I think I started dancing around like a fool. At that moment I couldn't care less, and just like the album's name, I felt happiness. Also there were two full-grown men around 25-years old on the tribune next to me yelling all the lyrics, it made me snort because I wouldn't have expected that. They were really cool! At the same time they were watching a soccer game because one of the started screaming 2-0 to the other side of the tribune where apparently friends were standing, because they started jumping up and down! Haha.

To the people who are whining about the fact Theo is/might be losing his voice: Fuck you dearly. To be honest, his voice has actually improved since the last time I saw them. I remember with Wonderful Life, usually you heard his voice really soft at the end, and he didn't do the last sentence. It was only background. Now you can fully hear everything. Did I mention Theo makes weird movements? Because he does, he really does! And he massively abuses his microphone stand, I was surprised it was still normal after swinging it in the air multiple times almost hitting Adam with it. This isn't Sparta, this is Theo's Madness!

I also called Lady* and I think I kind of gave her an heartattack with Affair. Twice actually! At the end I met up with Dianna and she was with some friend, all really nice girls! I bought some buttons and after that we went outside, on our way to the back where the buses were. I was running what late but Paul was there for a minute (?) but we got sent away as I arrived there, so we had to stand next to the road waiting for them! I think I did see Theo once, since you can figure out who Theo is by the sight of him walking around (no offense, you're cute when you walk) We could see the dancers and apparently they were having a blast because they were dancing all the time, in the end Paul joined in. Around 12 I left. I was drenched, it was cold and I really had to go back because I promised my dad to be back at the car around 11 PM. Ha. In the end the didn't come out, so I missed nothing. And you know, I don't blame them because the weather was absolutely shit.

The next morning I woke up in the hotel, had a nice shower (though it was so small, I kept getting stuck into the curtains and I almost tripped once) Next to that, we got a wake up call by Justin Bieber. We had breakfast downstairs, which was very lovely by the way, we checked out and we went into the city center around 11. Aachen is a beautiful place, not because of the shops but I liked the churches they had and the atmosphere there is. Having our reflex camera with us, which still works on film, made me look like a hipster when I wanted to shoot some stills (probably posting some of them when I have them developed. I still have to develop 5 our films, oops) We bought some singles, and I got a really cool James Dean mints-box! Also, I think we spend half an hour in this train/cars/planes miniatures shop, for the die-hard collectors. I felt like a nerd. Around 2 we headed back to the car and went back on our way home.




Sorry for the long post but all with all, I think I can fairly say I had a blast. Hurts, thank you for the amazing concert. Dianna, thank you for the lovely time I had with you, you are adorable and amazing. Lady* (and your mums phone) thank you for putting up with me when I had to pee! Also, thank you dad for making the effort to go see one of my favorite bands with me, abroad.

What's in my purse?

 From left to right first row: My agenda (obviously with a Hurts front), a pencil, a flickering light I got at a Valentines Day birthday party, ''Fashion against AIDS'' package with two condoms in it (got it from the H&M in Cologne, obviously not using yeah) and a little round jar with vaseline in it.
From left to right second row: My wallet, hand and body lotion, blackberry, iPod, Gym member card, ''Pêcheur d'Islande'' by Pierre Loti* and some money.

This is practically all that I usually take with me, sometimes less, sometimes more. Most of the time I also take my iPod Touch with me so I can watch some movies and play games. Depends, but sometimes I also take some pencils and a notebook with me when I'll have to go by train so visit some friends or have a fun shopping day at the other side of the country.

About the *: I bought it today when I was at the secondhand shop, and I really want to improve my French, so why not start with buying a 'French' book? Also bought a Dutch-French Dictionary, so it's going to be alright. I hope. I just do nothing in class, it's boring. The problem is, I don't take any of it serious and I really should take it serious because it's important for all my exams and I don't want to fail.

Isn't this vest lovely? Bought it for €6 when it's actually from MANGO... Get it?

Next to the french book and dictionary, I bought the play-book of ''Il Pleut Dans Ma Maison'', a cardigan, a blue blouse and a white tank top. I was looking for a bow tie, but they didn't have any, which makes me sad because I want to be the Doctor :-(

Oh well. I also have to arrange things for my dad's upcoming birthday party (ho ho ho he's becoming already 50) so I hope I'll have a bow tie by then, because I want to wear a bow tie. Bow ties are cool.

Procrastinate

So a few months ago I got these two beauties. Well, WTJ is not that beautiful anymore, because I took it in the shower with me.

Wreck This Journal and This is Not a Book are quite similar to each other, but then once again, so different. TINAB is more for making a creation out of your book and WTJ is more about WRECK THAT BOOK. I've used WTJ more, even took it with me to pinkpop. Today, august 26, is the day I am going to start using TINAB as well. With this as my first ever assignment!


''This is a nature mimic. Take a break, where ever you are. Add some stills toe this nature mimic''
And so I did. I added The Tenth doctor and his Tardis. (Watching Doctor Who 24/7 is taking it's toll. Fuck.)


And this was my first assignment with WTJ. And I wrecked it goooood, so I took it with me under the shower. (not kidding)

Other assignments you can find in WTJ/TINAB are Collect fruit-stickers, describe one happening in all details, Experiment: Leave your book one night somewhere else and random adventures. Everyone should get a book like this, because everyone is good in procrastinating* and with those books it makes it even easier for you to procrastinate.

*pro·cras·ti·nate (pr-krst-nt, pr-)
v. pro·cras·ti·nat·ed, pro·cras·ti·nat·ing, pro·cras·ti·nates
- To put off doing something, especially out of habitual carelessness or laziness.
- To postpone or delay needlessly.